I thought it would take time
To let go
I thought it would take a while
For you to leave me alone
Those daydreams and
Wishes on stars
Seems forgotten
Promises broken
You promised you would
never hurt me
You promised you would
look out for me
Why do I feel
so lonely and alone
Why do I feel
I have no one at home
They say it takes time
time to heal
Band aids never
do come out easy
Then why does it
hurt still
Why do I
miss you still
I have moved on
made myself busy
But sometimes
something triggers the memory
I walk past that shop
where we tried out costumes
laughed like idiots
howled at the moon
I listen to that song
that we played on repeat
danced on the beds
sang to karaoke
We used to lay down
beneath the open sky
Talk about the future
never knew you would fly
Now I avoid
that shop, those songs
But tell me how do I avoid you
when the heartless stars
follow me along
They tell me to forget you
Its been a long while
Band aid long gone
The wound is still inside
You said you never lie
you said you would never leave
you lied when you left
why did you leave
Long drives
on curvy roads
Windows open
trying to unload
Creating new memories
Meeting new ones
Trying out stuff
Even going on a run
You said you wouldn’t leave me
You are right you never did
I see you everywhere I look
Your presence I am trying to get rid
“Quit it!!” I say
Leave me alone
You say you made a promise
You can’t see me forlorn
Leave me leave me please
Let me move on let me be
No come back I beg of you
I need to hold on I need to see
I need to mourn
I need you
need you
please
don’t go
don’t ever
let go
Lost
alone
Wild in pain
helpless
hopeless
feeling insane
********
I cry in silence
They mock me otherwise
They need to understand
Screaming out loud helps pain subside
So I stand in the balcony
Gazing at the stars
Gazing at memories
Gazing at the scars
Coz even though you ripped me
like a band aid
I can’t howl like they do
They label me with shame
Maybe
screaming will scare you away
Maybe
you might run away
So I shall be quiet
utterly still
Wait for the angel
await the drill
I know you shall be waiting
at the gates of heaven
Renew the memories
Let the games begin.
it is beautiful poem, I donot know how I missed it 🙂 By the way you are being missed on WordPress. I think you are enjoying your holidays.Take care 🙂
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Thank you Sana for your kind words as always.
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This is such a beautifully written, very relatable poem. Absolutely loved it, Aaliyah!
p.s. It’s Adi from The Happy Lifeaholic – I spontaneously deleted my old blog in September, and since you were one of my regular followers, I just wanted to drop you a note saying I’ve created a new one that I hope you’ll drop by sometime. It’s – http://www.adihappylifeaholicblog.wordpress.com 🙂
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Thanks heaps Adi.
I shall check out your blog now.
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^_^ Hope you enjoy your tour of my blog, and thanks for stopping by!
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Beautiful..!!
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Thank you 🙂
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Can I just say I am sitting here, staring at the Computer screen *Jaw Dropped* ?? Woww… This is sooo beautiful, as if you have actually been there… To be honest I hope U have never been there… To that hurtful a position!!! It’s painful but amazing words to be read!!! Aaliyah no wonder my friend do I love you so Much.. You are an amazing talented young *BRAT* 😛 lol.. was kidding!! I love you habibthi! :* May Allah reunite us in Jannah… Aameen!!! ❤ Highest level Indeed!
Btw… please for my relief tell me this is not written from your experience my dear! Coz I wish Allah (SWT) never gives you such a huge test!! Ameen! I know that pain of losing loved ones so dear, breaking every single promise I held close to my heart, & still regret trusting such people steadfast!
" You said you wouldn’t leave me
You are right you never did
I see you everywhere I look
Your presence I am trying to get rid
“Quit it!!” I say
Leave me alone
You say you made a promise
You can’t see me forlorn
Leave me leave me please
Let me move on let me be
No come back I beg of you
I need to hold on I need to see
I need to mourn
I need you
need you
please
don’t go"
My favourite lines of dilemma one faces… I love your work!! And I expect more of it from you! :* In sha Allah! ❤
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Thank you Ish. Alhumdulillah I haven’t been able to experience the pain of a closed one yet but a friend of mine did. This was an attempt to empathise and eulogize that pain.
You are too sweet habibthi. I pray we do meet up in Jannah for a tight hug and loads of chocolates.
Thank you for sharing your favourite lines. They are my favourite too as it exemplifies the anguish at its peak.
Thanks again for supporting me and my work with such sweet words. I am smiling wide reading your comment. Such love!!
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Wow then this is even more amazing, as this is expressing the pain really well… This also proves how sweet a friend you are.. Your friend is indeed very lucky to have you, habibthi! :*
Ameen ya rabbul aalameen!! hahaah chocolates… I think I should go ahead and save this somewhere so that I remember this very well when I come to meet you! 🙂 😉 😛
So true.,.. these lines are catchy and indeed serves its purpose! 😀
hehehe… ❤ it's soo sweet! 🙂 Aww love you! :*
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You know the best thing about this new ‘experiment’ of yours is that it feels like its real. Like you are there.
Like you are almost there.
All the while reading I could not help but compare it to my poem , “You’re here; right here.”
It felt like the proceedings of it.
You wrote it so well.
“Why do I
miss you still
I have moved on
made myself busy
But sometimes
something triggers the memory”
The imagery that comes into my mind is really painful. Making yourself busy with stuffs and every time you pause is because someone crossed your mind.
How do you do this?
You make laugh at one thing.
And then you make me cry at another.
“Maybe
screaming will scare you away”
I felt like as if someone is saying to me, “Dafaa ho jaao”
Heheee. . 😉
“Maybe
you might run away
So I shall be quiet
utterly still”
What a beauty!
But, being silent is never the solution. This way you’re being selfish by caring and concerning things only about and to yourself.
May be letting the words out shall help.
Just like making a post, having a direct conversation would be a better option.
“Wait for the angel
await the drill”
This was so nice lady.
I can imagine you being ruthless at everything and just waiting for the angel of death to arrive because you can’t wait but desire strongly to be taken to Jannah as you mentioned in the coming lines.
“I know you shall be waiting
at the gates of heaven”
And here you portrayed it so well as to why you would ‘await the drill’. That someone is already waiting for you at the Gates of Jannah to escort you to with him to a place where you’d stay forever this way.
“This is the best poem I had read till date.”
Don’t stress yourself in thinking that where has this line come from in the poem because of the apostrophes. Its not your line. Its mine. 😀
Okay! Sorry. Its for you though. I mean your poem.
Oh! I wish I was the one who wrote it. But, then I wish I didn’t because that would mean I would have to go through all the pain.
But, then again I wish it weren’t you to go through it instead.
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Breathtakingly beautiful Missy. I hope you’re studying to become a writer 😉 Otherwise the world has just lost some talent.
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Awww that made me melt. Sweetest comment ever. Jazakallah sister. Keep praying for me and in sha Allah I shall try my best too 😀
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For sure sis ❤ may Allah swt ease all your affairs and bless you with the best of his blessings in dunya and akhirah, ameen.
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beautiful and beautiful and beautiful love it!! ❤ 😉
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Thank you thank you thank you 😀 I am glad you did.
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haha np!! 😀
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Masha Allah very nice.keep up the good work.
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Jazakallah Farheen 🙂
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Aaliyah this hit the nail right on the head for me. Can relate to so much in here. Beautifully put my lovely x
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Awww thanks Tammy. I am so glad to hear.
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I read it in the tone and beats of “I wish you would”.
Never knew I was friends with such an awesome expressive blogger! The imagery was quite a ride, dude. Do more of this stuff. You’ll nail it.
(I promised myself that I won’t comment, to stay hidden, but then I was like, this deserves more than a star. Keep shining bro! )
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Now I am listening to it and this became even more special.
Thank you Mahaah.Glad to hear positive feedback. Just branching and experimenting. Baby steps haha.
(Awww now I am floored. Appreciate it. Good luck for exams chutki 🙂
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Hahahah. You’re welcome and thank you 🙂
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Aaliyah! This is beautiful! The pain speaks. I absolutely love it! You should do more of emotions in your posts. You’ll rock it. ❤
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I am glad you were able to feel it Adi.
Thanks for the sweet comment and feedback.Encourages me to experiment further 🙂
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Powerful, heartfelt, read every line twice .. Thank you for sharing!!!
Keep smiling!!
God bless 🙂
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Thanks for the sweet comment and thank you for taking the time to read
And you keep smiling too ok?
May God bless you too!!
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I am trying it every moment…even if I fail every time; but I keep on trying !!
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Good on ya!!! Stay strong.
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Yes….at least for few more years !!!
🙂
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Just to survive for another day 🙂
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So heartfelt and emotional! I could literally picture everything, an amazing piece of work! P.s. Pop up again sometime soon?
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Awww thanks as always for the lovely support paper Girl!!
P.S. My email is stucckk asking for some security code!! I shall email as soon as I get it back. Sowwiiee!!
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This is so powerful. And the imagery is brilliant. I could visualise the stars and the balcony and the drive. Undoubtedly, one of your best posts.
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Thank you!! I am glad I was able to portray it in a way that you were able to visualise. Mission accomplished!!!
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Wow, you’re so good at this though.
I like the imagery you formed with the words 🙂
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Thank you Hiba. I am glad to hear that my attempt was successful.
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🙂
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Wow. I was engrossed by that throughout! You write sooooooo well! Amazinnnnggg 🙂
I love how you ended it too. Let the games begin!
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Awww thank you revels. You are too sweet.
Haha yeah that ending reminds me of Hunger Games 😛
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AZ yar! What is this?
I want to also go with you to the school of witchcraft,wizardry and poetry.Please! XD
Great poem.Keep smiling!
Oh and if you take pictures while gazing stars show me. :3
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Haha yaar dunno, just an attempt.
Ooooh yes yes yes let’s go together. Heaps of fun it will be!!!
Thanks Inky. You keep smiling too yeah?
For sure. Although with the weather here in Melbourne : the damn clouds always get in the way 😦
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Smiling 😀
Hey atleast those clouds are something new. :3
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Second part of it is absolutely brilliant!
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Thank you 🙂 I am glad you found it so.
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🙂
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